Feeling

I don't regret a moment with you
It's just the feeling of worthlessness you gave me
It makes me want to take every thought, every lovely gesture back
I bash myself to be too good to you
For the days I was angry but never spoke a word
For those words that pierced me through
For the ignorance that ignited my pride
I regret not a moment with you
It's just the feeling of worthlessness you gave me. 

grew wild

You never mentored me
So i grew wild
Had no one to look upto
So did what felt right
You said i should have grabbed your hands
I laughed as i bearly knew the life
My fingers were little searching for care
My tongue unaware of speaking a word so slight
You were to be the shade
But you have been the shadow
I should have had carved ways
But am searching through the gallows

Warrior

I've tears in my eyes

No, am not crying

I maybe stumbling

No, i ain't dying

I'm slowly changing

Yes, growing them wings back

Closed doors, on my face

Are about to light my path

I may look lost

Well, am just constructing up

It's no time to lose

It all just started up

I've blank sheets

Yes, they're all about to bleed up

I've them saying

This girl is just fucking up 

I've chained hands

No, am no criminal

I don't have a sword

Yet am a warrior

They say heart is there to beat blood

 Then why the fuck does it pump for him?

But this mind keeps on telling me

There are other things, more welcoming

This ain't game of love

It't just a bluff

You lose this game

in your each turn

I've fucked up, like everyone

No, am not fucking giving up

Your color

  No shade of me remained uncolored

No side of me remained dark

Every bit of me got painted

Every inch of me dyed your color 

Found god

Some said they've found God

Some said they've found love

If i really see inside

I've found storm

Darkness and light we contain both

It's a skill to hide it

That i've learnt not

Some said they've passion

Some said they've them gold

I know that ain't real

We all have them old

Regrets and rough days we have been through that all

You don't reach

I'm the sound you don't reach for

I'm the thunder that chooses not to rain

I'm the veil after veil

I'm naked yet my soul is covered in layers of pain

I've never experienced love

though I keep it as if it came to me years ago

I'm sure I'll find it

yet it's taking so long

I've faith and i'm at test

I know but i know not

Reflection after reflection

I'm trying but there's no impact

Ask

And I asked what if I ripped of my face and there was nothing beautiful in me

Would you still like me? Would you still be sweet to me?

And I asked what if I was scarred and it couldn’t be fixed?

Would you still compensate? Would you still treat me the same?

And I asked what if I wasn’t giving in too much too easily?

Would you still smile at me the same? Would you regard me the same way?

And I asked again what if my mouth revealed it’s bitterness?

Would you still listen to me? Would you still laugh with me?

Trap

Trap is set again

I’ve jumped up into the same pit

I know the game and the players too

I’m faking to lose it this time again

What they don’t know is

I’ve trained enough

I’ve winged myself while it’s bright and lit

Their evilness smell just the same

What they don’t know is

I’ve caught the scent

Barking dogs and some bleeding nails

They’re setting up the trap again

I’m jumping in yet standing still

What they don’t know is

They’d be blinded soon

When they’d hit the mirror

A reflection of vows

 Haunting back at them

While I wing up to the sky again

Flying up again, just away from them

Path

                               Have you ever walked through the path, known path, silently, holding every ounce of breath within your pounding chest, but why are you afraid and of what?

Silently, shamefully putting your head down, you walk by the glaring eyes staring right into your soul, you’re cold yet you move yourself, you’re afraid you’ll freeze to death if you stayed

What are those eyes seeking? Are you worthy of giving them what they seek?

Maybe you know you are, yet cloaking your worthy nakedness into the blanket of ignorance you walk.

It’s pounding crazy, you’re wondering if you were there in their feet. You’re stone cold, trying hard to think of something pleasant

Yet you grieve inside, your soul moans and curse, you see yet you don’t observe, you hear yet you don’t understand

They’re tired, at your doorstep they bleed, you know its wounds from someone cruel, yet how are you not another cruel soul if you’re not letting them in?

They call out to you, you don’t reach, they’re being slaughtered yet you don’t speak

Wake up before you’re in their feet, bleeding to death at someone else’s arete

Power within

  

                        When you have been so strong for so much of a while you start to become fragile, 

                       the un-seeable fragile. All the while you stay strong and when you’re out of the chaos                        you wonder that what made you so strong? What was the madness that kept you moving                       on? And sometimes you amaze yourself by doing something you’re not worthy and                                 capable of doing and then you are stunned to see that power in you

Greedy

I am greedy, greedy of your love

Hoping daily, you’d find me quick

Crying daily, am hurt from their sticks

Give me shelter, I promise my love won’t alter. 

Lens

There are stories that are untold

I want to make them unheard no more

It’s sad and unveiling

I am just poisoned by its thought

Don’t I get a chance to be heard?

Am I not enough to live to the fullest?

Life is cruel so are people

In search of magic we all get up

It’s sick and sad

I am not standing a chance

It’s my life yet there are others holding the strands

Smiling face and the holding breath

All the glitters that are given out

I am drained inside but looking full and set.

Sound

  

My thoughts used to have words

But they’re noting but sound now

Black Organ

Been dropping the redness into my heart
But this organ of blackness doesn't gets start
Pumping the air of love to get rid at last
The illness of rust is prevailing so fast
Been bubbling the cotton of love in my chest
Been blooming the dry heart ;out of rest
Been brushing the tangled veins of my heart
Been stumbling to face the reckless blast
The blossom of springing red love
Been sticking the wings on my dead dove
Watering the bone dry pitch of my heart
Escaping the curse of my gloomier past.

Undercontrol

Her touch was rust killing everything around
She was a diva that strolled the smokey cold twilights
Cheeks always glowing with tears pouring out of her red sensitive eyes
She blamed and defended her ownself
It was difficult but one had to loose
Those lips longing the redness of love
That body being motioned by others
That rust that wasn't her to grow

Innocene of collecting stars and not knowing how they burnt her hands
Closeness if eye could see, she'd pick the longed star 
A geometry unknown
A theory yet to be explained
She was a planet destoryed yet reborn
 Bleeding clouds, crying rain, black days and heartless chest
It was all but regret never left
Her texture was of leafless tree, dying evidently yet refraining to bow down
Dripping the colors of love inside the tunnel bleached deep
Splashing her own face, disappointed at her own

Colorless ache

The eyes portrayed colorful shades

yet that one colorless ache

slipped down among them

Nobody saw but her own soul

She drowned in that one stream,

 leaving all those colors still on display

We : The Planet of our choice

O! man you rotate around Allah and His will 

You're one of the planets of your own choice

you determine to stay close to "Sun" to exist and live in peace

It's you who takes you away or somewhat out of the system,thinking of ease

O! man it's time you become your own earth, understand Allah's orders and unveil His love.