My ruins

Surrounded by people 

I try not reach to your memory

Logic is helping me out

Today i win

I know i have lost in all ways

Yet i stand and laugh here in my ruins

Little secret

And i'll tell you a little secret

I am happy and am not

My eyes tell you what's inside

My tongue's clever it never slips

All my laughter showers on you

All my sighs i never spread

Let me tell you a little secret

You'll never understand me beyond my walls

If you really wanna know me, read my words they tell you all

Coldness of winters

I don't feel a need to tie you up anymore.

I don't crave the need of you.

Perhaps we were meant to witness love in the raw form that we did

and even though I'm not feeble anymore

somewhat a place stays vacant

and I'm not sure how much time would it take 

for me to open it to the world again.

I'm relieved, I just don't want to wander.

I'm hoping that one fine day, that could be any day now,

I'll feel the sun coming up again on my sky,

warm me up but before that all I might be destined to

experience is coldness of winters.