Run away

You want to run away

You love the idea of you without me

Here you go baby

Here you go baby

Think I have the will to give you up

All ships burnt, you never asked me to return

Just like all the times

I am not yours neither you're mine

You speak of the journey, I am not by your side

I discard all my heart desires

I let you go just like before

3 months time, all my fantasies remain mine

This pit of burning negativity

will's suicide and you chaining yourself to hold back

Don't you see that's how strong it gets

You like the idea of seperation

Might as well give you the presentation

You showed me a place

Talk about your faith

You ask me what's in my head

Babe how can you not get?

I won't ruin your flight

neither would i ever be that girl who sabotage your life

I sit alone and ask myself

Do i love the one who doesn't love me back

or do i love the one who does love me back?

I am in a position,

I have only one way to go

and that's away from you

What do you want me to say?

My tongue got snatched from me

Toss it out

He sleeps while my miseries fall down

It hurts and he is not around 

Promises, games finally came to conclusion

My heart, a vessel of foul

Still craving the second round

Not sure of what of it was true or false

Now i can't even toss it out

The blind

You carry it all
It doesn't go away
All the decisions you make
They haunt you down to your good old days
What happened, what you said, what was the truth
You can go over and over but you would only lose
Your mind, your sanity, your better judgement
The right, the wrong, beyond it is a road
You were told to keep safe from that very road
Was a lie, like rest of it all
The blind must come off
what you felt, how it did it go?
Baby it's all really just about you
intervening, sketching, mending the broken
if those are your parts then go put some stitches
All my faces, all my hot and cold shades
I'm not just a page, I'm a sketchbook full of taste
It's all me, the hurt, the strong, the rebel, the weak
I grew in length, i stayed strong to my feet.
Roots remained the same
Grew up in varied schemes.
I'm the monster I have saved myself from me.

Stone cold

I'm the demon I hid myself from

and you, I couldn't even see or serve 

I was the chain on your legs

sour taste on your tongue

I was to keep away the death

I was the one who shot you straight through the head

Turns out i didn't see mirror

heard whatever mouths uttered

Let people laugh, my insecurities root deep within

Now I live with this heart, stone cold as you said

And I see exactly where I messed it up

My ruins

Surrounded by people 

I try not reach to your memory

Logic is helping me out

Today i win

I know i have lost in all ways

Yet i stand and laugh here in my ruins

Little secret

And i'll tell you a little secret

I am happy and am not

My eyes tell you what's inside

My tongue's clever it never slips

All my laughter showers on you

All my sighs i never spread

Let me tell you a little secret

You'll never understand me beyond my walls

If you really wanna know me, read my words they tell you all

Coldness of winters

I don't feel a need to tie you up anymore.

I don't crave the need of you.

Perhaps we were meant to witness love in the raw form that we did

and even though I'm not feeble anymore

somewhat a place stays vacant

and I'm not sure how much time would it take 

for me to open it to the world again.

I'm relieved, I just don't want to wander.

I'm hoping that one fine day, that could be any day now,

I'll feel the sun coming up again on my sky,

warm me up but before that all I might be destined to

experience is coldness of winters.

Peel off

I'm naked, all bare infront of you
you see through me
my skin, my thoughts, my values, my all
you're under unimaginable layers
every peel off feels like i've you
who you really are, I never got to find

Snatched map

I look at the mirror and I 

honestly find ghosts

Some stranger's face

I wish I could know

There are tales in my head

My thoughts are tied in a knot

My maps' been snatched

I don't know where to go

The older me call my name

But these voices out number the claims

There is a fire i feel

An ocean ready to bleed

Is it me who dies?

or is it me giving life?

It's all just a whisper

Running right across my mind

I'm not god

           

I'm not God

You ask me to give and ask for nothing   

You want me to stay but push and pull away

I can't stay, I'm leaving mid-way

It's not my fight, you've to go solo

Let it take you it's way

I've bled, I've done enough

It's not to say you've not given me enough

But a voyage has to be travelled  and done

And it asks you to be the only one

I'm building my wings, I'll be ready for flight

I don't know when's your calling

Maybe it's after the longing

You do you, I do I

It finally has to be a goodbye

Goodbye labeless lover

to heavens I ask for cover

Stuck

I tired controlling it, undertasnding it,
unveiling it, ran away from it, modified it
I don't know why a thought in me tells me.
I have to carry the burden of my sadness.
What sadness I know not.