Candle light

 

You turn off the lights

Blow up the candle light

I am warm inside when

You look me in the eye

I set like sun 

And fall like snow

Sometimes heavy, and sometimes low

My heart knows it finds you there

Each and every turn I clear

You’re there, babe you’re there

I brighten up around you

My soul untangling into yours

You’re the moon that shows up at dark nights

You’re them woods that hide sacred flights

You’re love, you’re droll

You say the words, you roll

Power

 

My powers control me for now

I am planning to take them down

Bow before me, i am your master

I am to keep you, in me you foster

I let you grow i let you rise

I let you be i let you strive

I am to build your wings for flight

I am to pour your heart with fright

Love for love, love for all

You’re destined to be tomb of love who calls

Be here, be free

No past memories

Play game of passions

Lose from love in all your sessions

Hold everything that comes

Then show them gate as you become

You are beautiful

 

Your beautiful existence wrap me around

I find you wherever I turn about

The unasked, unspoken kind

You’re the love that I don’t mind

Our laughters, the memories, that love

You have become my go to dove

Every touch, every gaze

Every passing moment without a race

That silence, that pace

You fold me from each end babe

I am wrapped around with your love

The care you give is so enough

I put faith in you

I see me just as new

You, you’re a different kind

I see you, you see me twice

We walk alongside

We exist in our time

Word

 

If I didn’t say a word for the next hrs to come

If I sewed my lips and heard and just took in

What would It mean? am perplexed

Voice within or voice without

Balance is the wanted crown

I chose to stay stuck

Don’t try to follow my internal crux

I know but I un-know it

I got to speak but choose to ignore it

Delay, follow the flow, let it be

I put these chains out in my feet

Move on or stay, what does it even have to say?

Internal compass guides me through

Then I hit myself with all the blues

Choices made, over weight crushing

I tend to bury myself and make me go rushing

Irony I meet in me, words I try to keep

I am a human, I am designed to fall on my feet

House

 

I am a house to all the graves of sharpened words

I am a tomb holding in secrets way before my time

I let you in, then you forget to make your way out

The temple in search of itself 

The home, to none and to all

The voices hushed, the eyes pinched

Outplay the monster,  level up

Why does it then show up?

A riddle searching to get solved

A rider riding nowhere

I scream, I am voiceless

I be, I am being less

Mine doesn’t belong to me

Me is a mystery 

I circle around questions

I twirl away in my inspections

Answers I hint, answer that bling

I am a shelter to witnessed oppression

I am a cloak, a little torn

Talk about me

 

Let’s talk about me

I could be anything I want to be

Voices lost, coming right back at my sanity

Losing you, losing everything I have ever held closely

Deep ditch, I am wallowing

Build a rope, I am out again

I fall for different monsters each time

I laugh that’s a sign I out grow them all the time

Woman, mentor and everything

I am comfortable in my own skin

You couldn’t bother to stay a bit

Turned foul like I have pressed a pin

Baby, let’s talk about how I have been

Doing better or still the same?

This girl keep walking that’s the aim

Remember when you said, keep moving on

I stuck by it,  I went on and on

Let’s talk about entitlement

Since that’s all the worth I am

I am a warrior, I am a woman unstoppable

You thought you could hold me down?

Bitch please, first stand your ground

Don’t say you love someone

When all you do Is fuck them up

Leave them be

When you know to them, you’re everything 

Grow a beard, grow a heart 

Maybe grow some balls you need

Cuz you ain't what you said to me

Too far

 

You have gone a little too far

Time tells me you meant a lot

The months so countable

Feel like years have passed

My partner, my baby, my shinning star

Never thought last memory of us

Would be too much to grasp

I let you down

By going way too far

You quit, is the news still on

I carry them pieces 

I carry you on

You may have left, you maybe gone

But baby you live until I live on

My life’s a short journey

I wish it was me who stumbled out firstly

But breathes are counted

Your love, a bounty

Creator

 

I am the creator

With my crayon

I draw and it be

Them lines blur out bleak

I forget how brave I can be

I forget the power that’s surreal

I create, I destruct

Foolish of me to not get struck

With the love I offer

With the love I hold

With the pot a little empty

With the pot lacking identity

I break, I mend

I hate it when I blend

I choose, I caress 

Why then I suppress?

Hold onto me

I whisper to myself

Create, until the crayon becomes self

Choose love

 

Never got it when they fought

Their love wasn’t even the last thing they thought

Being little, I thought love could save relations

I believed it could provide places

To the people departing out of gazes

Little by little, I see the bigger picture

Not ego, not anger, not unsolvable stances

Love gets chosen after all

Love for the responsibility of ones own self

Everyone is trying to take care of their fragile selves

It’s the choice made, the gulp of poison taken

It’s the chances jumped into, it’s the very soul directing each through.

Let me go

 

We met, took them steps

You called it fate

Then times went on

Beautiful memories we’d grown

We talked about love, we talked about family

We cherished each other’s companies

But then how did we come to this?

A mere try, a mere effort

Nothing at all

The person so full of risks

Taking none at all

Just like I mean nothing

You let me go

You choose to let me go

You called it fate

When you let me go

No longer

Am I just your lover?

An empty vessel without you?

Am I not whole?

Am I not enough on my own

Yeah we are away

Yeah we had it all the way

But what are these ropes?

And what are these voices?

They’re on me,wait

are these my biases?

Patience, you have, might not stay longer

Afraid, I am, not gonna stay no longer

Let’s keep walking, let’s keep living

Not where I want to be

But I am making a killing

Let me sow

My eyes have bled

My tears now dry

I am empty of a vessel

I am my own valentine

The lover of lovers

The love itself

The cage of love

The very place we met

The mending of souls

The bendings within

I let you sow?

You let me in?

Honey

Bruised and sadness diving into the roots

Soul to be with; soul that is lost

I bleed, I bet you can’t see

I seek, but maybe you freed

I see, but do you see?

I feel, but do you feel?

It’s only a matter of time

Life is short, spend it like the last time

I have loved to a fault

I have been a monster’s drone

I am keen, I am storm

But for you, I have calmed them stones

The fire to my woods

The content of my heart

You honey, you know what you are

I have a home in me

 

I have a home in me to offer

It’s been open for other(s)

Then I found the keys

And built the doors

I painted my walls

I put the locks on

I built my own home

I live in there

Why don’t you please spare

Let me be happy

Let me reside within

It was never for you to roam freely

The old traveller has returned home

The wanderer finally met her soul

I have a home in me

I have a home for me 

Prisoner

You're the prison

You're the prisoner

Rise above

Take a step forward

You're gold

Do you see the world around?

It shines

cause you keep shining alright?

The power within 

Holds key and the cage

It's for you to decide

To take the key or the cage

Fly with the wings you don't see

Burn with the fire, flickering inside

Don't stop, it's time

oops burnt

 

I am on fire

It’s only getting started

I know you’ve heard it before

Maybe prayed for me to let it go

Do you think I am a master?

Do you think I’m gonna let it foster?

I keep it for a while

Maybe raise it like a child

You still there I see

The glitter on me, oh don’t mind me

Your thought came for a second

Nah, with flicker died the old sinner

Feel the fire

Feel the gains

I am nowhere still there

You still screeching the old bins

Honey, please get real

I burnt your toys

Burnt the whole existence down

I bet you looking for another round

I am on fire

It’s only getting started

I know you’ve heard it before

It burns everywhere she goes

Pour onto me

 

Pour me with your truth

Pour me the wine of ease 

You carry it like it’s no big a deal

You’re so special you know what I mean?

You’re the crown on my head

You’re the soul diving in

I am happy deep inside

You make it all worth the while

Pour on me the colors running through you

Soak me wet with them rainbows so red 

Stand still, look ahead

You’re not just a voice in my head

Dipped to the roots

Blossoming every bit

You babe got me somehting like this

In search of me

 

Blowing wind tells me you're here
Or may you come as wind grizzling, 
through my skin, blowing through my hair
In search of me, you wander through the streets
You fly across the skies and the ocean blues

Irony in me

 

Pause and movement, both I seek

Dread and comfort, both run in me

Tired and fueled up,  both I'm

Sick and in need, is my real time

Narrative to be shaken

Talks to be made

Walks to be taken

Stops to be made.

You're building me

 

You’re building me
Stitch by stitch
Each of your words
Fall like a bandage, final one
You, there’s something eternal in there
You’re flowering my brain
My heart starting to shift
You’re making me fall in love
But not just you but with God too
You’re lovely and sweet
You’re bitter, you’re freed
Your efforts are filling in bricks
To my stranded self
I am becoming un-blind 

That’s how you have seen me

Love

I keep on meeting you Love,

Your faceless existence

Your gizzillion entities

I get to know one

I get to know none

All in one

One in all

I see, feel and be you

What am I to be but you?

I merge, I die, I get erased in my flight

I seek, I be, my mutings’ not helping me

You see through the cracks

There are drops in your dress

Your body, your soul

They see me as their own

We are clothed together

I know your soul, a little better

Maybe, I am scared

Maybe, I am flawed

There’s definitely something going on 

Friendship

What is it to be a friend?
The depth I seek, the words I’m told
Are two extremes, on opposite ends
Truth, devotion, selflessness
Too much, mad man, weak to stand for oneself
Isn’t friendship another word for blossom?
Isn’t friednship another word for love?
Why is that later at night, there’s loneliness that lingers within me
My therapist told me I don’t know how to be alone
I say who am I without a friend?
There’s a friend I have known, there’sa friend I long
There’s friend in God, there’s friend in me
Friendship is but two souls devoted for one another
Friendship is the deepest bond there could exist.
I could be called and labelled crazy to want the unattainable
But the heart longs for the friend,

The friend it has had, the friend it would have and the friend that it never got.

Painting in process

 

Half faced doll, Incomplete lego

A stranded building , a house that used to be here

I am a painting in process, an ocean slowly gathering

I am me even when i can't feel it so

The heart pounds almost out of my chest

Words strangling my mind, Sweet love of yours I cherish

My chaos mind chokes me within

Wanting, asking and realities

I leave me alone and anywhere else I be

A strange sensation, a disturbing state, I let go off all my inner space

Lost, angry and scared to death, I'm hiding beneath my smiling self