grew wild

You never mentored me
So i grew wild
Had no one to look upto
So did what felt right
You said i should have grabbed your hands
I laughed as i bearly knew the life
My fingers were little searching for care
My tongue unaware of speaking a word so slight
You were to be the shade
But you have been the shadow
I should have had carved ways
But am searching through the gallows

Warrior

I've tears in my eyes

No, am not crying

I maybe stumbling

No, i ain't dying

I'm slowly changing

Yes, growing them wings back

Closed doors, on my face

Are about to light my path

I may look lost

Well, am just constructing up

It's no time to lose

It all just started up

I've blank sheets

Yes, they're all about to bleed up

I've them saying

This girl is just fucking up 

I've chained hands

No, am no criminal

I don't have a sword

Yet am a warrior

They say heart is there to beat blood

 Then why the fuck does it pump for him?

But this mind keeps on telling me

There are other things, more welcoming

This ain't game of love

It't just a bluff

You lose this game

in your each turn

I've fucked up, like everyone

No, am not fucking giving up

Your color

  No shade of me remained uncolored

No side of me remained dark

Every bit of me got painted

Every inch of me dyed your color 

Found god

Some said they've found God

Some said they've found love

If i really see inside

I've found storm

Darkness and light we contain both

It's a skill to hide it

That i've learnt not

Some said they've passion

Some said they've them gold

I know that ain't real

We all have them old

Regrets and rough days we have been through that all

You don't reach

I'm the sound you don't reach for

I'm the thunder that chooses not to rain

I'm the veil after veil

I'm naked yet my soul is covered in layers of pain

I've never experienced love

though I keep it as if it came to me years ago

I'm sure I'll find it

yet it's taking so long

I've faith and i'm at test

I know but i know not

Reflection after reflection

I'm trying but there's no impact