Stuck

I tired controlling it, undertasnding it,
unveiling it, ran away from it, modified it
I don't know why a thought in me tells me.
I have to carry the burden of my sadness.
What sadness I know not.

Feeling

I don't regret a moment with you
It's just the feeling of worthlessness you gave me
It makes me want to take every thought, every lovely gesture back
I bash myself to be too good to you
For the days I was angry but never spoke a word
For those words that pierced me through
For the ignorance that ignited my pride
I regret not a moment with you
It's just the feeling of worthlessness you gave me. 

grew wild

You never mentored me
So i grew wild
Had no one to look upto
So did what felt right
You said i should have grabbed your hands
I laughed as i bearly knew the life
My fingers were little searching for care
My tongue unaware of speaking a word so slight
You were to be the shade
But you have been the shadow
I should have had carved ways
But am searching through the gallows

Warrior

I've tears in my eyes

No, am not crying

I maybe stumbling

No, i ain't dying

I'm slowly changing

Yes, growing them wings back

Closed doors, on my face

Are about to light my path

I may look lost

Well, am just constructing up

It's no time to lose

It all just started up

I've blank sheets

Yes, they're all about to bleed up

I've them saying

This girl is just fucking up 

I've chained hands

No, am no criminal

I don't have a sword

Yet am a warrior

They say heart is there to beat blood

 Then why the fuck does it pump for him?

But this mind keeps on telling me

There are other things, more welcoming

This ain't game of love

It't just a bluff

You lose this game

in your each turn

I've fucked up, like everyone

No, am not fucking giving up

Your color

  No shade of me remained uncolored

No side of me remained dark

Every bit of me got painted

Every inch of me dyed your color