burn in hell

I was a girl with fresh wings

Skin of a 25 aged spring

wings of a two

The sparkles lit my mind

I took your arrows for fire wood

I was wrong, more times than I recall

You cut my tree and made a fire

You called it love, liar

A fever, it was, I reckoned too late

Two times, I let you dig my grave

 A missed manual in life?

Or just a naive girl so far?

Do these demons haunt you too?

Did you lose sleep since you crushed my soul?

Wounded and bloody , I limped

Towards  life, a new

Seeing you intertwined with someone new

The path only we knew

Or as I thought to be true

How dare you?

I have been in torment of a sort

I wish you hell and cast a curse

I could hurt you, I will

You mom, your sister and your dad

All of you are snakes in masks

Called me names and judged me for the roots

Rotten, all of you!

The day I met you or any of those looters

Those days were repayment of my worst

I know I am making it to the heaven

I have done my time in hell, when I was with you

You caged me and walked right on me

Used my money to hide your disgusting boy lackings

Shoutout to your dad

One big loser of a man

First shitty thing he did was to birth you or whatever its a kin

Second was making me cry and taking my money in the name of help

To your family, a group of looters

Who think they’re decent humans

I have done my time in hell

Oh! Yes the time I have spent with you then

Your time remains un-clocked 

I promised you its not going to miss a spot

To a total failure of a boy, you have birthed

You really would have done

A good deed, for once

To let your first die

When God really tried

To the boy who think he’s not enough

Who trembles like a bug

I assure you, you are exactly that

Your honesty can go to hell

In the name of truth you knifed my heart

I release you from my memory

You belong to a different cage

I send you off, now

With prayers of your agony and frown

The biggest battle of my life

A demon in the skin of a male swine

You soul crushers and stinky humans

I wish you the worst demons!

pals

 

You see me, I see you too

Two buddies swimming through

Distance and roots of varied colors

We splash like waves running into each other

‘I though therapy was working’

Below the belt, even for you my friend

I don’t hate you or think you’re mean

You’re but a mirror to me

At times a bigger, roaring sis

Yet you’re terrified of the sins

I wash my hands on the same sink

You got your flaws, just a human being

I want to tell you my honesty

I’m reminded how I’ve not been

Honest, real and myself

No, I just couldn’t bring

I keep distancing

I know you can tell

Maybe that’s why you try to fight my fights

You’re a kind one, you’re my friend

I love you pal, you’re such a gem

We are earth poles of the extreme ends

I give a way, ‘maybe this time!’

You block doors, ‘Why even try?’

to be loved by you

 

A dream, you and me

We are home with candles lit

I secretly adore you honey

To my surprise I’m in for a treat

My body and brain wants you

We rustle like autumn leaves

Your careful hands and the love filled kisses

Painted across my knees

I’m so happy I could die

You are a galaxy that bring its own skies

You get eager to let my stars shine

O! To be loved by you

Dreamy home

 

A peek a boo in the streets

Beautiful soul exchange in the sheets

You’re my dreamy house

With that smile you go around

A snorty laughter, a careful posture

You’ve stood for me, miles and miles above else

You make this life better

You’re the shoulder that stays

Your lips soak them tears

You are a man of real deal

Once I heard you scared of jinxing it

I’m home with you

You’re my dreamy home

measure of performance?

 

They say you are what you do

I ask what if you couldn’t?

Are we really a measure of our performance?

Am I driving myself crazy again?

Is it another obstacle to delay the initiation?

Are my brain cells all over-powering?

Am I not ready to just do it?

I say you are what you are

I say you are undefined

Sometimes its just dark

You got to take that dark alley to hit that spot

All the beautiful places are not discovered 

And that’s a beautiful thought

Own will

 

I feel inked, my own color gone

Hidden or lost in this one-ness

All that win and all this path

So apparently it worked out or did it?

Maybe its the curse of own will

You get away with it yet your soul becomes restless

Was it a betrayal?

If yes by whom to whom?

Did I lose? Did I get inked once and for all?

Maybe forever doesn’t exist

Maybe I took the burden of going against my values

Though my values couldn’t be the boat to take me to the shore of this one sea

So maybe it happened exactly it was supposed to?

Could it be?

 

Could it be the maps followed were the people lost?

What if I’m the wisest of them all?

Crave love, crave joy of intelligence 

What if I was able to turn these heads?

What if early death means you get to live 

Could it be I have reached the end of the dream?

What if we are rats running for nothing?

What if everything’s worth a total null?

I bleed green

 

My blood is green

Its like cheap gasoline

All can burn, its convened

I am dispensable

They tell me my worth, its expendable 

They put me places 

Right on the ground

Human rights, what grounds?

They’ve tried to put me down

I’ve bled, look I’m teary now

It’s a skin I can’t peel off

It’s a seal, it makes sound

They have broken my wings infinite time

I’m ‘dheet’ (stubborn), I’’ve outgrown them +1 more times

Winter Escape

We built a jail around

Called it home somehow

Dreams and stars and hopes and spark

All stayed outside this park

We adorned it with our careful love

Thinking it’ll take us up

We were dazed and sad in the eyes

The darkest blues we have seen in skies

You said ‘you don’t feel stuck anymore’

Indeed we locked in on us.

Time flew, like a tortured cell

We both have been back bent

I love you now, I love you always

You’re my most special place 

Liberties, we both take today

Winters, we didn’t escape

Lantern of love was never out

Through darkness, we have howled

I’m drenched fully in your richness

I bloom, you’re the witness

I am uncertain of the way

Nothing’s here to stay

 

Shaken roots

 

Lost my shine, mask’s not staying on

Smile numbed, crooked smile

Its me again, my own valentine

Roots shaken, not yet out

Heart sickened, taste’s sour

This is my life, not ours

I refuse to stay hit and ran on

I am coming to haunt you down.