Friendship

What is it to be a friend?
The depth I seek, the words I’m told
Are two extremes, on opposite ends
Truth, devotion, selflessness
Too much, mad man, weak to stand for oneself
Isn’t friendship another word for blossom?
Isn’t friednship another word for love?
Why is that later at night, there’s loneliness that lingers within me
My therapist told me I don’t know how to be alone
I say who am I without a friend?
There’s a friend I have known, there’sa friend I long
There’s friend in God, there’s friend in me
Friendship is but two souls devoted for one another
Friendship is the deepest bond there could exist.
I could be called and labelled crazy to want the unattainable
But the heart longs for the friend,

The friend it has had, the friend it would have and the friend that it never got.

Painting in process

 

Half faced doll, Incomplete lego

A stranded building , a house that used to be here

I am a painting in process, an ocean slowly gathering

I am me even when i can't feel it so

The heart pounds almost out of my chest

Words strangling my mind, Sweet love of yours I cherish

My chaos mind chokes me within

Wanting, asking and realities

I leave me alone and anywhere else I be

A strange sensation, a disturbing state, I let go off all my inner space

Lost, angry and scared to death, I'm hiding beneath my smiling self

I stay

 

They don't stay

As if bound to get away

I stay, I slay

It's only God's play

A heart for softness

A well so deep

A lion only asleep

Cages within me

Let me escape nowhere

I run, I hide, I give it all my time

Belong

Where do we belong?

I don't have a home in you

So when I crack, you stitch me up

I don't have in you a place to put all my guards down

I have to carry it all on my own

I seek yet I haven't asked

I want yet I don't act at all

I want a place to be a kid again

This time a kid that's vulnerable

Who breaks down, who asks for help

Who doesn't have to bear it all alone

Run away

You want to run away

You love the idea of you without me

Here you go baby

Here you go baby

Think I have the will to give you up

All ships burnt, you never asked me to return

Just like all the times

I am not yours neither you're mine

You speak of the journey, I am not by your side

I discard all my heart desires

I let you go just like before

3 months time, all my fantasies remain mine

This pit of burning negativity

will's suicide and you chaining yourself to hold back

Don't you see that's how strong it gets

You like the idea of seperation

Might as well give you the presentation

You showed me a place

Talk about your faith

You ask me what's in my head

Babe how can you not get?

I won't ruin your flight

neither would i ever be that girl who sabotage your life

I sit alone and ask myself

Do i love the one who doesn't love me back

or do i love the one who does love me back?

I am in a position,

I have only one way to go

and that's away from you

What do you want me to say?

My tongue got snatched from me