Toss it out

He sleeps while my miseries fall down

It hurts and he is not around 

Promises, games finally came to conclusion

My heart, a vessel of foul

Still craving the second round

Not sure of what of it was true or false

Now i can't even toss it out

The blind

You carry it all
It doesn't go away
All the decisions you make
They haunt you down to your good old days
What happened, what you said, what was the truth
You can go over and over but you would only lose
Your mind, your sanity, your better judgement
The right, the wrong, beyond it is a road
You were told to keep safe from that very road
Was a lie, like rest of it all
The blind must come off
what you felt, how it did it go?
Baby it's all really just about you
intervening, sketching, mending the broken
if those are your parts then go put some stitches
All my faces, all my hot and cold shades
I'm not just a page, I'm a sketchbook full of taste
It's all me, the hurt, the strong, the rebel, the weak
I grew in length, i stayed strong to my feet.
Roots remained the same
Grew up in varied schemes.
I'm the monster I have saved myself from me.

Stone cold

I'm the demon I hid myself from

and you, I couldn't even see or serve 

I was the chain on your legs

sour taste on your tongue

I was to keep away the death

I was the one who shot you straight through the head

Turns out i didn't see mirror

heard whatever mouths uttered

Let people laugh, my insecurities root deep within

Now I live with this heart, stone cold as you said

And I see exactly where I messed it up

My ruins

Surrounded by people 

I try not reach to your memory

Logic is helping me out

Today i win

I know i have lost in all ways

Yet i stand and laugh here in my ruins

Little secret

And i'll tell you a little secret

I am happy and am not

My eyes tell you what's inside

My tongue's clever it never slips

All my laughter showers on you

All my sighs i never spread

Let me tell you a little secret

You'll never understand me beyond my walls

If you really wanna know me, read my words they tell you all